Acceptance
By A Starsoul. Filed in Acceptance, My Practices |
I’ve heard that “All is perfect” and I’ve made myself believe that, intellectually.
It is especially so when I read my book alone, when I meditate, when I face mountain ocean and sky; however, when I get back to daily life, there are the partner’s different ideas about everything triggering me, there are these office noises irritating me… I don’t know how I can go on being spiritual when I face all these unspiritual people.
My partner’s struggles, my tendency to try to fix him, his resistance, my annoyance… has been going on for a while.
This morning, on the way to work (oh how much I love walking to work every morning. It’s been delicious.), I suddenly opened a little more space in me, and in it I had a glimpse of perfection.
On my desk I wrote down two words for a while, “I ALLOW.” It’s until this morning that I really started to feel it. I’ve been judging everything, that’s why I wanted to fix, and I wanted to “make the world a better place”, which means a place that suits my vision, which I think is a highly advanced one…
But when I wrote down “I ALLOW”, I knew clearly that there is no polarity here. That means I allow EVERYTHING, including my partner’s struggles, which he has chosen, though unconsciously; including my own annoyance towards it… That means EVERYTHING, inside and outside. When I look at all of what’s going on without me and within me with understanding – I ALLOW, I started to feel excitement. Isn’t this what compassion is about? In this compassion, I could indeed see the perfection.
Because perfection IS reality, and reality IS what is. Reality is inclusive. It’s when we take side – either… or..— that we suffer.
“As you think, so you are.” If I could simply ALLOW, whatever is going on going on, I can indeed feel the true existence of the very I AM.
I am not the clouds which always change shapes. I am the blue sky, which accept all clouds.
